The greatest shifts in life perspectives come when you aren’t ready with a spotlight to shine upon it. It isn’t something you go around telling your friends about, like the fake shifts in life perspectives have you do. You don’t even tell your parents. You just keep quiet and notice that the shade in which you view things has darkened or lightened. You start to make different decisions that have minimal impact at first, so much so that people do not notice the differences in these decisions. Over time, this ball rolls and accumulates, it keeps on shifting you on a slight tangent from where you originally were headed had you not had the change in life perspective. And one day, you find yourself down a path you thought was naturally going to be your destiny, yet you do not immediately realise that your destiny could have been very different, had you not had your perspective changed. None of the bells and whistles you expected to come with the change chime or sound, and it is by its nature truly unexpected and never foreshadowed.
This is the true nature of true change.
Let me show you a few things
The Zhangye Danxia is a unique landform found in China. The mountain range seems to be made of candy-bright stripes of different sedimentary rock layers that have been forced upwards and carved down by time, revealing slices of Earth’s colorful past.
This little piece is part of the Light Grey Art Lab show Macro & Micro (Minerals category), which will be opening this Friday in Minneapolis, MN. Check out the site for more info. You can also buy this print or any of the other pieces in the show HERE! I am floored by all the awesome art that was made for this show, and really honored to just be a part of one of LGAL’s awesome exhibitions!
Romance. From me to you.
It’s 1.41am and I have an essay due on Monday. It’s based on interview questions that I haven’t received answers for. The fact that I’m stuck in this rut is haunting my mind, because I think that I hate not progressing. At the same time, there have been times where I’ve been completely okay with not progressing, which begs the question, what’s different now as compared to that other time?
Well for one, the fact that I feel that I can do this assignment really well (it interests me and I think I can give it a great shot) is playing its part. This is an unhealthy trait of mine and if anybody else reading this has it, take caution - just because you think you can do something well as compared to other things which you think you can’t do well, doesn’t mean you should shift effort levels between the two. Sure, life in general does work that way - you do what you’re good at and passionate about (or as best a balance of the two as you can achieve) - but you’ll eventually come across something even in the field of what you’re passionate about, which will bug you. Keep the effort levels, keep your head screwed on.
In other news, I saw a video again which I saw a while ago about a guy doing 22 good deeds on his 22nd birthday. I’d like to do something like that, though I’ll probably just take photos and caption them as opposed to making a video. Some people opposed the idea of him making a video because they said he did it to gloat, but honestly, I see it as him spreading awareness and promoting peace above personal achievement. Beside, I can just use his video now to show other people what kindness can achieve - why make my own. So that’s settled. :)
Now it’s 1.46am. Tomorrow’s a new day; I’ll let John Mayer close out the night for me. Realistically, I’m going to fall asleep by 2.30am. I’ve got tons of work to do this week, lets hope I keep my head level despite the irritation I’ve felt at not being able to make progress.
Patience truly is the most important virtue.
When I’m worried about something, I feel my chest tighten and my heart flutter, which is funny because I thought heart flutters were a sign of positive excitement, until I experienced one for the first time under the circumstances I was in. As they say, everything is a matter of perspective.
I’m worried about two things that I was worried about up to 3 years ago: education and money. These worries have become a part of my life and have actually urged me to continue moving at the pace I am. I guess you could always go faster, deliver better, and as an avid daft punk fan, how could I leave out the words stronger and harder. I am stronger, things are harder. That should do for now.
I work now, while I study, which is good. Despite having an allowance, being able to earn a little bit more to support your lifestyle is always a good thing. I’ve found through working people that I enjoy being around and people around whom I feel comfortable. This makes me fearful in turn, because the last time I found people I was comfortable around, we became friends with blots of black dripped carelessly in between. Sometimes, after a day of hanging out and thinking “hey these guys are pretty wonderful”, I’d wake up the next day and thereafter find myself completely alone. Work has banished lonesomeness.
I don’t think I’ve lost sight of love, not just yet. I still believe in it but a certain type of it, the one I know. This type, I still talk about and advocate it, and advise people based on it. I guess that’s what you’re supposed to do aren’t you, use what you know until you know more or different, or both.
What I have been, is busy. I wished for it, and now I have it, and I am enjoying it. It makes me sad sometimes because it puts up large empty hollow spaces between the times I talk to my closest friends, but I can’t help that. I just hope they understand, and besides, I rely on the fact that when it comes to my closest friends, conversations feel like they are picked up right where we left them. And if it doesn’t feel that way, it means change is here. People, places, situations, they all change and this changes the dynamics of relationships. I guess the core values are there and will never change; this is something to cherish and not lose sight of.
I feel, blessed to be alive. I also feel happy that I am still capable of certain things, like hugging my mother and my father, and knowing I can solve problems that I have in the future. All I want is a life with my close friends and somebody to love. This is what I’m good at - being with close friends and loving somebody. So I guess the close friends thing is working out alright, not only of old but new close friends too. Again the dynamics are pretty crappy but I’m doing what I can with them. Now all I need is somebody to love.
Yeah, that’d be pretty sweet. Life would be made then. :)
We are all prostitutes.
The currency of our trade isn’t always measured by intimate nights or folded dollar bills – we play at much higher stakes: we barter our hearts away. While the ladies of the night conceal their faces with layer upon layer of makeup and loiter in dim alleys; we, unlike…
Life’s about being consistently confident, and supremely at that. It’s about being calculated enough to say things so well thought out, you don’t have to go back on your word - that’s what the unattractive do. It’s about seizing what you want and doing what you want with it, and doing whatever it takes to get to that point. It’s about putting yourself in a position where you’re on top not only because of who you are, but also because of what you’ve done, without sacrificing one of those criterion for the other. It’s about suffering in silence, and filling that sound void with positive vibrations only. It’s about playing the game with not just a poker face, but a poker smirk. It’s about pulling the strings so that as much of the world as possible becomes your niche, your forte.